I realise this blog has pretty much become a pregnancy diary but hey, this is a nine month deal and it's given me lots more time to write so it is what it is.
The past few nights have been really challenging. I am starting to physically feel the weight of carrying a human around all day, not to mention that she kicks between 50 - 100 times a day. It is a surreal feeling which I really enjoy at the time but at nights she gets so much more active and targets my bladder as a punching bag. Winter is in and it's been really cold at nights here so leaving my cozy electric blanket to rush to the loo every 5 minutes isn't that fun. Besides the internal assault, just moving around in general wears me out and the lower back and leg pain is nasty. I'm getting snappy with Ransley at night for no particular reason other than that he seems to be having a much better sleep than I am. Last night I told him that he's annoying me just because he turned over too quickly. I feel bad but he'll just have to forgive me for now.
As we are now officially in the third trimester, I realise that I am way less fit than I should be. If there's something I'll definitely keep in mind for the next pregnancy it will be to focus on getting myself physically fit first. I can imagine it makes a huge difference. I see these pregnancy workout videos on YouTube and watch how some woman in their 3rd trimester are doing daily boxing sessions or intense pregnancy yoga routines and I feel like I really messed up by not making sure I had the stamina and discipline to get in shape as well. I don't worry much about the weight gain, I haven't put on that much anyway but I've heard that labour is much easier when you've been physically active and agile during the pregnancy. Right now just washing dishes and being on my feet for too long gets me winded.
Well, all complaints aside, this is also probably the most exciting time as well. My bump is undeniably present from every angle and the food cravings have me enjoying lots of sugary delicacies. The baby gets even more jumpy when I eat sweet things. I hope that's not an indication of her taste preferences or I'm in trouble. I am going to try my utmost to keep her diet healthy when she gets here, I just didn't consider my own that much. That will have to change too. It's so important that we take care of our health now. We are the only ones she can rely on and we can't afford to be distracted by our own health issues when we should be focussing on her wellbeing.
I'm not that sure what I want to write about this time. I started this post a few days ago but didn't get around to finishing it until now. It's after midnight and I'm having another rough night so this is a good distraction. There's a lot going on with Covid-19 becoming rampant in SA. Our gynae is infected so I've missed an appointment already. I feel bad for him and hope he's OK but I'm also wondering what alternatives I should be preparing incase his recovery is slower than expected. I also feel like the next 2 months is going to fly by so I'm a little anxious about whether we've prepared for her arrival enough. I should probably start thinking about getting a hospital bag ready but we haven't discussed the delivery plan or hospital requirements with the doctor yet. I've decided to give it another week and then call the hospital directly to find out what I need to be doing. This is so crazy the more I think about it. I am wondering if we made a mistake by coming back to SA considering that NZ completely overcame the virus and is now on their second wave after reopening borders. I know it's a futile train of thought but all I have is time these days.
And there you have it, another random brain dump of a blog post. I normally would try to be more structured and purposeful but I also want to keep track of all these little non-events for future reference. My memory is being zapped by advanced pregnancy brain so I need to record as much of this as possible and this seems like the appropriate place to do it. I really want to document some of the more meaningful memories during this time so my next post will probably have some substance (hopefully...)
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