A New Season

Spring is here and for us that means it's officially baby girl's birth month, unless she decides to hang in for longer than expected. I feel like she will probably be on time even though I have no basis for that assessment. Either way, it's the final countdown! I am nine months pregnant.

The past two weeks have been rough on me physically. Even though I am trying to still be active and involved in the day to day, by the time I get into bed at night I have swollen feet and ankles and I am exhausted but unable to fall asleep till the early hours of the morning. Luckily I can still sleep in on most days and I'm guessing this is what I will miss most with having a newborn.

Apart from that, I have been working on a very exciting project that I have wanted to launch for a while now and it's finally ready. My very own podcast! It's called "Mom School" and is based on me trying to learn as much as I can about motherhood from experienced moms who have interesting stories to tell and wisdom to share. I am so nervous about sharing it publicly but I feel the need now more than ever to put positive messages and helpful information out into my community so that my daughter will be exposed to an environment that empowers and encourages her. I want her to know that she can also contribute anything she wants to this world during her lifetime and hopefully this translates to me leading by example. I also like that I get the opportunity to connect with like-minded mums who are around my age and who are going through similar experiences. I do believe that it takes a village to raise a child and I want to be a part of the right village. 

I have to admit, it is not easy trying to be productive and creative this far along in pregnancy. At my normal pace I would have been able to get through so much more work, so much faster. Just as I get momentum on a blog post or prep for the podcast, I have the strong urge to nap that I can't seem to push through anymore. My brain is also not processing as sharply as I'm used to. This is the thing I am most concerned about returning to normal after giving birth. I can feel myself struggling to form sentences and find words that would never usually be an issue, which you might have gauged from reading till this point. I am also extra foggy at night. I lose concentration and can barely retain any information during conversations. I've read that this is normal but going through it is still very disconcerting. It makes me sympathetic to the elderly who probably feel similarly when they start to lose cognitive abilities that they took for granted without warning.

There are a few things that I was hoping to round up before baby arrives this month but I am coming to terms with the fact that I might not be able to meet all my last minute goals at this rate. This is why I am extra excited that I will be able to launch the podcast on schedule. It is actually the first venture that I have been able to follow through with in a long time and I am certain that it's because this baby is inspiring me and creating a sense of urgency to start living the life I have been called to live. 

Okay, it's 11:30 pm and I am struggling through this post. I really wanted to publish it on the first day of September and that's why I'm forcing it but I still want to be honest and put it on record that I am not entirely present while writing this. At least I managed to get my announcement out. I'll make up for the shoddy writing in another post. I really can't wait to see how my blogging evolves after I become a mother. I have this ideal that I will dramatically emerge from the pregnancy fog with all the superpowers that mums have but I will also still have my youthful, sarcastic style of communicating. We'll see I guess. Thanks in advance for tolerating my increasingly ranting posts. Full disclosure, there will likely be a few more of these before we resume normal, relatable activity on this blog.

Hey, stay tuned for Mom School, the podcast. Coming soon!